[working the steps]

So I have now read the section on the First Step in the SAA book, and I want to start working it. Do I just start on my own? Do I get a sponsor? I've got this nebulous sense that I'm going to do this wrong, and I'm not sure how to begin asking that question, or who to ask it of.

There's an awkwardness, a fear of rejection, in asking for a sponsor, and I'm not sure I've met anyone yet who would be right for the role. The SAA group I've gone to offers "temporary sponsors," so I might try that approach.

I suppose all of this is ultimately about fear of actually working the Step. But looking at the book again, I see it says that "we get help from someone in the program, usually our sponsor, to work the First Step." And that makes obvious sense: doing it on our own is exactly not the point.

I need a sponsor, which means I need to go to enough meetings to find one.